Suspended

Suspended

I thought something

Something wrong, he said

I did something

Something I cannot remember

Something bad, he yelled

I said I’m sorry

I even cried because of it

But he didn’t forgive me

I don’t know where am I

I have no voice to call him

I’m just thoughts and darkness

And an eternal pain

Right around my neck

I can’t see anything

I can’t feel anything

Dad, I’m so sorry

He slapped me in the face

That didn’t hurt

Saw the anger in his eyes did

I don’t understand why

I try to behave nicely

I don’t disrespect him

I barely talk to him

He wouldn’t listen anyway

I am a good girl

I follow all his orders

But I thought that him…

Right, I cannot think

I have to be quiet all the time

Without move, without talk

And without cry

Or I’ll end up like her

He could put me back in the closet

It is not that bad, you know

I can’t see him hurt mummy there

I don’t ear anything either

And I believe the stopped

I believe the let her go

So it probably worth it

I was not punished in vain

I will be free soon

Then I’ll get back to her

And it won’t hurt anymore

I’ll be shore he will be there too

For he to see my wounds

And accept my apologize

Maybe I can hope his regret

After all, I think he killed me

Raquel Martinez Neves

11-Jul-10